Reality Check

Thursday, November 10, 2011: Today, I wanted to be able to express gratitude that I no longer had to worry about my little tummy "cyst", but it was not to be. Unfortunately, my doctor and his nurse neglected to tell me that I had to be off Coumadin for FIVE days prior to any type of procedure. I am so bummed. I cried when they told me we would have to reschedule. And of course, the next available appointment isn't until DECEMBER 1, which seems like forever away. I know it will be here in a blink of an eye, but it can't come soon enough. Now, I will worry through concert week next week, through Thanksgiving and beyond, until it is finally removed and analyzed. I just want it gone. I am in a funk over this. So, I must think of my gratitude attitude.

Yesterday (yes, I didn't have time to post), I was thankful for my little girl (not so little at 5'9"). She and I went to the Young Women's Evening of Excellence and my heart was swollen with pride and love for what a beautiful young lady she is and is becoming. I'm grateful that she likes to tell me everything, because I know someday--in the realm of teenagehood--that may not be the case. I love the drama of her life--her struggles with her shyness around new and old friends, her new-found "crush" on a boy at school, her love of CHOIR (hooray!), her love of Seminary (another hooray!), and all the hoopla that comes with being 14--and a half. She is beautiful and funny, and I really must learn to be more patient when she acts a bit selfish. It's just so junior high, and I really do remember how that feels. I love her dearly. I'm so grateful to have her in my life.

Today, I am grateful (even though I'm also grouchy) for my health. I had the energy (even after my crying spell) to clean my house, including bathrooms!, for Chelsea & Rob's arrival tonight. I have a small house, so the energy level doesn't have to be monumental, but I'm so grateful that I can push a vacuum around, scrub a tub, and polish a few mirrors. Maybe if I had had the "procedure" (I refuse to call it a surgery!), I wouldn't have been able to do all that today. Tomorrow maybe, but not today. So, see? There is a silver lining in the dark cloud that dumped on me today. Okay. I'll feel better tomorrow.